I love summer fruits squash

I like lazy days.


(except for the textiles which I spent 3 hours on and haven't finished)

Daddy

Yes i am pissed off because I already give up enough of my time for you. I don't care 'how many miles' it would save you, I don't see why I should not do something just because you don't want to have to drive. If you don't want to come get me then I don't see why I should go. There is no way you are getting me in a car with that son of a bitch that you call a brother-in-law. I'll get the train up if you really want. You must know how much I hate going up there. It's not that I hate you I just hate being at your house surrounded by people who look down on my like I am the dirt on their shoes. Next time you ask me I am going to say NO its not ok for you to make me give up my time to come see you just as it wasn't ok for you to move away but I still didn't speak up when you asked me if i minded. Of course I minded, who wouldn't? At some point I am going to stop coming to visit you at all and even though you may say its because I don't like you it is actually because I really don't fancy spending every other fucking weekend in the car for 5 hours just to watch TV when I could be doing something better. I know SHE rings everyday and doesn't ever miss going to see him but I AM NOT HER. and I never will be. yes, I love you but you have to let me grow up and not make me feel so bad all the time.


There, Now i feel better.

Memories

No one ever goes on blogger anymore.


I need to stop caring and start talking.

Memeroies are odd things. Do you remeber piczo and Gwen stafani? I have had one of those days when all you can think of is the past. Does everyone have them or is it just me? Maybe its because we are supposed to be thinking about our futures but I really don't know what I want to do. I am so scared i won't get into sixth form. I don't know why it means so much to me but it does.

what do you want me to say?

What do you want me to say? that I miss you too? because even though many people think the oppisite it is true. I miss eating waffles at your dads and climbing the tree in your garden and I miss you but I never know what to say anymore.

By the way

Florence and the machine &hearts
I don't think anyone understands how badly I want to see them live.

:)

I am currently sitting here holding the bottom of my camera on so that it will charge which, as you might of guessed, makes it very hard to type. I haven't posted anything for awhile so I thought I would. that and the fact that I am v. bored.

I have been thinking about and really I don't know why I worry so much about not being close to people because really I have some amazing friends in and out of school. Yes, it would be nice to get to know people better but thats only my fault that I don't really talk to people much.

This weekend was amazing. We were meant to go to Brighton but being the tight people we are we decided it was too expensive and went to London which was lovely :) I brought this really nice cardi from Zara :) We wondered round Selfridge trying on the perfume and pretending we were rich. which I will be one day guys. I don't know how, but I will.

The only thing I dislike about going to Oxford street is that it makes me kind of depressed that I have no money.

The rest of the day, and night to come to think of it, was filled with eating ben and jerry's, mattress surfing, playing on raving rayman rabids and taking photos. Watching High School at 1 in the morning and trying to copy the dances is rather funny, as is How to look good naked USA.

All I want to say is thank you Rachel and Emma for a fun weekend and that stupid facebook won't let me load the photos :(