PLEASE

I want to go to tanzania so baddddd.

Better start saving as it is bare expensive.

Wow. 3 weeks.

Don't judge a book by its cover.

I am sorry if my text offended you. It wasn't supposed to. It's just that even though it was partly my idea, I know that I wouldn't get any of the credit because I'm just boring old rachel so how could it be anything to do with me.

Wordssss

Story of my life.

Not about what you think....

can't you see it hurts to watch.

Everywhere

I am glad that you have been cremated because it means you are everywhere. In the wind, in the earth, in the rain.
I hope you are having fun up there.

wishes

I used to wish for many things
to be rich
to be clever
to be pretty
to be popular
to travel the world
to travel in time
to have my dad closer
to be able to sing
to be able to draw
to be musical
to be so many things

but if someone gave me one wish now i would wish for you.

If i was given a million wishes i would wish for you a million times over.

Until we meet again beautiful

Today even the sky cried for you.

ha

I made the mistake of believing you.

This ones for you.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TG4zXE0_7yA

I hope the weather is better up there...

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

This past week has felt like an age
yet it seems like just yesterday you were still smiling.
I can't believe I will never see you again

Who knew.

To me these lyrics seem fitting.

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

God Eleanor, I am pissed off with you. I haven't told anyone because I feel that they will think badly of me. Why did you not wait for the little green man to get you safely across the road, huh? It still doesn't feel real. It's like its all a bad dream and I will wake up and you will still be there calling me a mong. I am not looking foward to the day that reality hits and I realise that you really aren't coming back. Today I forgot about you for a minute and I am sorry. I forgot that you were gone. It hurt to remember. German was the worst. You have left me as the only girl in our whole column. You would have hated the lesson, he had all the windows wide open, as usual, he made us awnser questions on white boards, as usual, and then he gave us homework. I spent the whole lesson trying not to look at your chair.

Earlier I remembered that time when it snowed and we went up to the school and you ran onto the cricket pitch and made a snow angel and then said 'I always wanted to do that' and the time at lacrosse when we spun round our sticks and try to walk in straight lines. I keep remembering all these little things that seemed so trivial at the time but now they seem important.

You be amazed at how many people loved you. there are over 3000 people in the group and over 100 of us walking for you on sunday.

I regret not being there over the summer and not going to iceland. I regret getting so drunk at Tot's and missing jans party because they are times when I could have spent more time with you and got to know you better.

An empty chair seems so much emptier when you know that it will never be filled again and a silence seems so much louder when you know the person insn't coming back.

I miss you so much and I love you.

Hope you are having fun wherever you are, our little angel.

sleep tight beautiful.

x

P.S thanks for the invite.

Goodbye my lovely.

Eleanor, Eleanor
I would do anything for another minute with you because
It's not getting easier, it's not getting easier

I will never forget you beautiful. You defiantly deserved pengest body more than anyone else in our year. Yesterday was horrible at school, you even got Mr Doherty crying. I bet you are proud. On Sunday we are all going to visit the place. I will find you the nicest flowers I can because you deserve them. We are going to wear green in honour of your love for it. I will wear my slag pants as well.

I don't think you have made me cry this much since you last beat me up at Lacrosse. I love you and miss you so much.

Goodbye Eleanor Austin. I love you forever and always.

Meet me halfway

I actually collapsed into tears earlier.
You don't realise how much it effects you until you think about it.

Eleanor

Eleanor you stupid girl. Why did you have to get hit by a car? You have made everyone so worried. I just want you to walk into school tomorrow and tell everyone that it has been a big joke and laugh at us all. I promise I will never get annoyed when you make fun of me about stupid things that don't matter. Today my mum told me something that really didn't help. I think I have cried more this weekend than I have in a long time. I then feel guilty about crying so much because I think of Molly and Alice. I had a thought today, you are going to be so hungry when you wake up because I am sure they aren't feeding you anywhere near the same amount as you usually eat :)

I made a promise today that I will make sure I treasure every moment I spend with all of you. I don't care how cliché that sounds, it's the truth.

GET WELL SOON ELEANOR AUSTIN!

Yes love, we do

I feel like we have been growing apart. Not just recently but for awhile now. It's no ones fault but I still miss it. I want us to be as close as we used to be again. I miss you.

Wow that was an eventful night

Unfortunately I can't remember any of it.


When I woke up today I felt like shit. I am never getting that drunk again. What a waste of a night. I am really sorry to all the people who had to help me. Apparently I was out cold in the bath.