Who knew.

To me these lyrics seem fitting.

You took my hand
You showed me how
You promised me you'd be around
Uh huh
That's right
I took your words
And I believed
In everything
You said to me
Yeah huh
That's right

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong
I know better
Cause you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Remember when we were such fools
And so convinced and just too cool
Oh no
No no
I wish I could touch you again
I wish I could still call you friend
I'd give anything

When someone said count your blessings now
'fore they're long gone
I guess I just didn't know how
I was all wrong
They knew better
Still you said forever
And ever
Who knew

Yeah yeah
I'll keep you locked in my head
Until we meet again
Until we
Until we meet again
And I won't forget you my friend
What happened

If someone said three years from now
You'd be long gone
I'd stand up and punch them out
Cause they're all wrong and
That last kiss
I'll cherish
Until we meet again
And time makes
It harder
I wish I could remember
But I keep
Your memory
You visit me in my sleep
My darling
Who knew
My darling
My darling
Who knew
My darling
I miss you
My darling
Who knew
Who knew

God Eleanor, I am pissed off with you. I haven't told anyone because I feel that they will think badly of me. Why did you not wait for the little green man to get you safely across the road, huh? It still doesn't feel real. It's like its all a bad dream and I will wake up and you will still be there calling me a mong. I am not looking foward to the day that reality hits and I realise that you really aren't coming back. Today I forgot about you for a minute and I am sorry. I forgot that you were gone. It hurt to remember. German was the worst. You have left me as the only girl in our whole column. You would have hated the lesson, he had all the windows wide open, as usual, he made us awnser questions on white boards, as usual, and then he gave us homework. I spent the whole lesson trying not to look at your chair.

Earlier I remembered that time when it snowed and we went up to the school and you ran onto the cricket pitch and made a snow angel and then said 'I always wanted to do that' and the time at lacrosse when we spun round our sticks and try to walk in straight lines. I keep remembering all these little things that seemed so trivial at the time but now they seem important.

You be amazed at how many people loved you. there are over 3000 people in the group and over 100 of us walking for you on sunday.

I regret not being there over the summer and not going to iceland. I regret getting so drunk at Tot's and missing jans party because they are times when I could have spent more time with you and got to know you better.

An empty chair seems so much emptier when you know that it will never be filled again and a silence seems so much louder when you know the person insn't coming back.

I miss you so much and I love you.

Hope you are having fun wherever you are, our little angel.

sleep tight beautiful.

x

P.S thanks for the invite.